Loving You

Apology!!! hahas sry Lazy to blog haha...

Life is a road that i wanna keep moving, Love is a river i wanna keep flowing

Ha ha .. this is a portion from the song at the beginning... espically this few month i find that this words really gave me inspiration. After all anybody need motivations every once in a while.

Through this two month, i`ve been working as RELIEF teacher in YHSS... haha and i really realise that teaching ain fun... is not abt the money and the privilages .. but you really need the passion to stay and BE a teacher... and it is a great responsibility being one!

But through this job, i manage to see things in a different angle, this aslo include being an ALUMNI in YHHB now... all my view and knowledge abt things changes drastically

Sometimes being a person with too much power and friends all around you, is a privilage... and is a good thing, however , once you know the true meaning of a true friend and responsibllity ... is very hard to go on...

I lost friends thought my process of norming.... and this have impacted me so much, some times to the people around me.. i have phobia in them afraid of the pain in experience again. i am not sure if it is my doings... even in dreams i dreamnt of the phobia... even now to the close people i have ... the tought of loosing is inevitable. i just noe... i cant loose anyone anymore... i cant afford to have another tiff... or the result of what i will be thinking is just to irrelistic.



Any way moving on ... i think love isnt my cup of tea now in 2010 also.. ha ha i just dun think so barh... and i dun want to talk abt it also.. i just now one simple thing and one simple logic.. i am still waiting i guess.. for mircales? but maybe to others is a different story.. to some one who just grown up to someone who just got independant.. loosing girls... facing reconisation prob... stress and much more... i just dun noe how long can a person take this kind of things. and i tad i was stress when i was still in sec... haha... is stong will power people must have to keep themself moving from failure.. but sometimes is just not enoght or it wont work... been troubling my brain for ease pills and solutioons too... but i just realise i cant do much too... but shall ABT no matter wat i guess... Always remembering climbing a stairs with a LOAD(BURDEN) behind... getting rest from large platform to keep ur self moving to ur goals and a fantastic view will alwya be there.:)